I have been having an uncomfortable issue for the past few months.
Weeks where I would question myself for the sake of others.
Weeks where I would berate myself to take the blame off of others.
Weeks where I was so insecure about myself that I felt worthless.
Weeks where I felt like I had NO ONE to turn to.
Yep... this is how I felt about myself... this is real and this is true and this is me.
In the meantime I began reading the book
So Long Insecurity by Beth Moore
It has been recommended a lot on the blogs and I wanted to see what it was all about too!
A lot of my insecurity (current and past)
has crept up in the last few weeks of reading this book...
I can usually read a book in few evenings at most but this books was a lot more to digest.
Two situations have been addressed as of now ~ although the effects of what I said and confronted are to be felt for a while,
I will stand my ground ~with the grace of God, know that I am a child of Him, clothed with strength and dignity.
Oh, I think I need to buy this book. Your feelings sounds very familiar! Thank you for sharing this book with us. I know Beth Moore is not only a wonderful writer, but walks very closely with Christ. I am sure this will be a very helpful book. (i will add this to my book wish list.)
ReplyDeleteAnd speaking of books, I am doing a giveaway over at my blog, in case you'd like to check it out!
I hope you have a wonderful weekend! :)
Preach on sistah!
ReplyDeleteI have heard so much about this book as well, I believe I really need to get out there a pick up a copy. Good for you for having your faith and courage!
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Okay, I'm going to get this book! I think we all have insecurities throughout our lives. I know I have, but as I've gotten older I've realized more and more that God created us in unique ways and rather than me feeling bad or insecure about myself, I praise Him who made me. Lots of times I don't know what He was thinkin when He created me, but who am I to question! lol!
ReplyDeleteThanks for mentioning this book.
Nancy
Praying for you my friend!
ReplyDeleteoh my dear friend!
ReplyDeleteeven though i have never met you in person, i can see this side in you to take blame for others. i think you are a very tender soul. i am sure you are the peacemaker!
when i was in the "workplace" how you described yourself was me to a "t"!!!
it is so hard & uncomfortable to stand our ground at times, but i always remind myself that if i am being pushed to do so - then there must be a reason behind it.
both you & cha cha are reading this book...i think i need to put on my list of "one day" reads. i will think & pray for strength for you. i hope you have a beautiful weekend. one that you draw strength from & a peace to your soul!
kellie
p.s. read your update on the adoption post - happy at least people in front of you are moving up. that means you will soon then too. i'll pray for time to fly by in your corner & for it to move real slow in my corner. :)
xoxo
I appreciate your openness, Patricia. When looking and reading at blogs, everyone's life seems to be perfect, and I suppose it's because most don't address problems that they are going through. I know I don't. So I just want you to know that you are not alone in your insecurities -- we all have them (I think) in one form or another. I'm happy that you are inspired by the book you're reading. When you're finished, let me know if you recommend it! I think you're a very special person!
ReplyDeleteOh my sweet sister, I know your pain in this book, I uncovered things that I had never saw in myself before and would have fought you to the death to say were not there. But once reveiled I saw how it had formed my life and I quickly gave it all to God and have been amazed at how my thoughts are changing. I have miles to go, but I am finding strenth and dignity in each day. I am going to the conferance in a few weeks and I am excited to see what else I learn. If you want to talk more about this I would love to.
ReplyDeleteCha Cha
I hear she's a good writer and really helps a lot of people! I am starting a Psalms study with one of her books at church in a couple weeks.
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